Sometimes all you need is a day to start like this.
Some days can be awesome, some days can be down right shitty, it all falls down on how you wake up, if you wake up feeling crappy you will have a shit day.
If you wake up with a smile you will have an awesome day. The past few weeks I’ve been waking up with doubt, sadness and negativity.
This covers a wide range of other things, just pure thoughts filled with self doubt, and thoughts of why is life like this? Why can’t things be different? Why can’t things go right or my way for once? Ect.
Then you get yourself into a rut, a downward spiral of negative thoughts, and it’s damn hard to get out of it. Fucking difficult to start thinking positive and happy thoughts, shit I sound like one them mind doctors talking shit eh?
Negative thoughts, maybe selfish in some eyes, are natural. You can’t help it.
All people want to do is get through life, get from one place to another, the start of life and the end, but the end sometimes comes too soon.
No matter who you are, at the end you will always have the thought of did I do enough? Did I fulfill my destiny? Did I do the right thing?
DID I LIVE MY LIFE TO THE FULLEST?
Let me tell you this people, the more you have the more you want.
Nothing will ever be enough, no matter what you have, no matter what you tell yourself, you will never have enough.
You will never do everything you want to do, you will never complete that bucket list, but you can have a damn good go at trying.
You live your life to the max by doing it your way, things may not always go to plan, and stuff will always get in the way, but that is what I call character building.
You go through life full of struggles, you face challenges and you sometimes face a brick wall.
So what should you do?
You hit them struggles face on, you take on the challenges and come out the other side Stringer and you either climb that brick wall or knock the fucker down.
Today I was driving with lil man, and on our little travels I saw something on the back of a car, it was a question. Just a simple question, that required an answer.
Not one of them questions you have to answer out loud or even straight away. Just a question that makes you think, a simple honest question of you and your mission in life.
WHAT YOU GOING TO DO?
Shit a simple question like that could mean anything right? What does it make you think?
That simple question isn’t asking you what you going to do now, it’s not asking you what your going to do tomorrow, it’s not even asking you what your going to do this weekend.
It’s asking you what you going to do with your life? How your going to go about doing it? How you want your life to go.
So what do you going to do?
Your life is your life, none else’s, you make your rules in you time. You only live once, are you going to waste it?
I feel like I’ve wasted a lot of my life, doing what others want to do, doing things other peoples way, doing things to make others happy.
When will that go in my favour?
The answer to that is, when you will allow it. Reap the benifits of your life, things don’t come easy for people like me and you, we have to work hard for what we want, we have to earn the stuff we get.
Life does seem tough, but doesn’t it make you a better person? I mean if you was given everything you wanted, doesn’t that spoil you? Then you just want more and more.
If you have to work hard for it, isn’t there that feeling of success? That feeling of appreciation for what you have got?
Yeah you may not have everything you want, you may not fulfill your every dream, but what you have struggled through, what you have gone through to get where you are, you should be proud.
I believe, every 5 years something happens, good or bad, something happens to change your life, everything in between happens for a reason. You go through life changing shit, and suddenly everything falls into place or falls apart, but it’s part of the bigger story.
Something changes, so do you. You either go with the flow or you fall apart.
Every 5 years something spectacular happens, I mean I’m 34 in a couple of months, the year after I’ll be a totally different person.
Take it this way, once you reach 5 years old, your no longer a toddler, you start growing up and shaping your personality.
Then at 10 years old your no longer a kid, you pretty much starting your next steps in life becoming a teenager.
Then at 15 you slowly start becoming an adult, shaping your life even more, making life choices going though exams and shit, you leave school a year later (in the UK).
Then at 20 you truely are an adult, standing on your own 2 feet, true life starts knocking at your door.
Then you reach 25, shit you better start stepping up, your life is pretty much shaped up, you got to go with the flow, last chances to make changes in life before your stuck eh? No you can change even after 25.
Then 30 comes a long, your supposed to be a fully fledged adult, your getting old eh? Life is what it is, just go with it, there’s no turning back now. If your lucky you will have made your circle of friends you gain people and loose people, life is flying by so fast you struggle to get a grip.
35 comes, hey not so bad eh? Well I’ve not reached 35 yet, but I’m getting damn close and it’ll be here before I even blink. I do know there will be changes, I’ll be a totally different person, I can feel it happening already, I will no longer be me, I’ll be someone new, even when I reach 40 it’ll be the same. I’ll change again, and at 45 and 50 ect.
The best thing to do is live life as it comes, one day at a time, don’t waste it, but never give up, never let it get you down.
YOUR LIFE IS YOURS, SO LIVE IT.
Make your life suit you, the sooner you do that the better. Let your life change, let your life shape you, become who your meant to be. Dont hold back.
Work hard, play harder.
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