Happy April peeps, spring is upon us, days are getting longer, and as usual the weather in sunny UK is all over the shop.
Well it’s probably all over the shop all over the world, but we have had sun, hot days, cold and snowy (not much but white flakes fell so that’s snow) and loads of rain.
That’s just this past week.
I’ve been concentrating on my book a fair bit as of late, yes I’ve still got the book mojo on the go. It involved a lot of writing but even more research as of late, but still damn fun to do.
Today though I thought I’d show my face round this block, see how everyone is going.
There’s going to be a lot of changes in life over the next month or so, I’ll keep you updated, I don’t want to reveal too much, I don’t want to tempt fate or let you down if things don’t go to plan but it’s all looking good so far and well looking good.
Life seems to go in different directions, some in the direction you can only hope and wish for, but many times it goes the complete opposite.
I’m happy with my life at the moment, I love it in fact, even though there are many thing I want to change, and many thing I want to do.
Without sounding depressing, I’ll just say it the way I mean it.
I want my family back. I miss them all, and I always will, I was scrolling through Facebook (dumb move), and I missed out on my cousins 30th. I wasn’t even invited, so that just proves where I stand doesn’t it?
Only close family were invited and close friends, wow, I wasn’t even though of. I’ve tried reaching out too many times, I’ve tried so hard in many ways to explain what was wrong, what happened but it’s never enough.
I just guess I’ll never be accepted back again, it is what it fucking is eh?
All because I was weak and let my ex control me, and come between me and my family too many times, I was always the one reaching out 1st, I was always the one texting or calling 1st, it’s shit eh?
What else can I do? I guess it was just never meant to be.
It just sucks to be outcast by the ones closest to you, the ones you would have taken a bullet for and been proud to do so. Just to be left behind when you needed them the most, I guess it was my own fault, I let it happen, and I’ve apologised too many times, but never enough obviously.
Anyway, let’s draw a line underneath that, let’s get some funny shit on the go eh? It is Monday afterall.
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