Wow, only a week left and everything changes.
Literally only a week left till I leave, quiet literally leave everything behind, a week left until my new life starts.
I’m shitting bricks, so freaking nervous and anxious I can’t even explain.
Ok so I say leave everything behind, there are a couple of things I’m not leaving behind and never will. Obviously I’m not leaving my son behind, but I will be seeing him less, but that was going to happen sooner or later anyway, his mother is moving up north soon so it is and always was going to be something that is going to happen either way.
I’m also not leaving my mum and step dad behind as I’ll still visit, and my friends I’ve made as I’m sure I’ll visit them and all them visit me too.
I’m also taking my toaster and kettle, so ok not everything is being left behind.
Just joking treacle tits has a kettle and toaster so I won’t be needing them.
I’m also taking all you awesome followers and readers with me, your all going to still be reading my shit, I hope, well I’m going to keep writing and blogging.
Still I’m shitting bricks, and that’s not even overstating facts, more like understating.
There is one thing I’m hoping to leave behind, and will be very very glad to do so …..
My debts, well mostly in a way, the IVA should be sorted soon, they having a meeting with all the companies that handle my debts in a couple of weeks, like 15 days.
I’m hoping it works out, shit I’m praying it works out, even though I’m not religious, just kind of hoping.
With a new life comes a chance to reinvent yourself, the chance to become someone else, the opportunity to become anyone or anything you desire.
Anything you can dream of.
Well not anything but you can become the person you have always wanted to become.
I may not ever become the worlds best blogger, maybe never even rich, or even a world wide book writer, even though I’m still working on my book.
I mean, shit, I’m becoming a stronger person, also a more confident person for sure, and I’ve damn well got my stutter and debts under some sort of control.
Above all else, I’m becoming happy, more happy than I’ve ever been, more happy than I could have ever imagined I could be.
That’s the dream right? Everyone wants to be happy.
Even though I’m scared shitless and my anxiety levels are through the roof, I’m on the right path to being the happiest I’ve ever been, and it starts in a week.
New life means new opportunities, new experiences and new everything. The path before me isn’t laid, it’s not a long planned road, it’s like a big massive field, a blank canvas ready for me to do my thing and ready for me to create my own path. The best thing is, I can give it as many curves and bends and loop the loops as I bloody well want.
It’s my road, and I can make it what I want, for the 1st time in my life I have full control of my own body, mind and heart, and my own future, and nooe can get in my way.
My life my rules.
If you ever have the opportunity to take control of your own life, bloody take it, because it’s the best feeling ever. God damn scary but damn it’s a rush like no other.
It may be a hard, long winding road, but you are strong enough to handle whatever comes your way, trust me, that’s coming from someone who has never been strong.
Take what you can, you may even surprise yourself. Live your life your way.
As good ol’ Bon Jovi stated …..
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